You know what raaaaaid, I think you should probably spend more time on the art and less time trying to figure everything out..
I wouldn't be as cruel as the people on here who call you crazy, but you're slightly mad, just like most artists.
I suggest you get yourself some canvas and oil paints and just let go...
See what happens, don't just paint with your eyes use your mind too. Throw away the watercolours, slap the oil paint on with anything...
Don't do a katie perry (sorry boys) do something bold and abstract that means something to you. Why pursue the truth when you can make some of your own?
Remember good art doesn't have to look like what it's supposed to be, it has to create a reaction. So far none of your stuff really hits home. it's a bit safe, and you're not exactly a conventional thinker.. Go mad(er)
So, get surreal and messy...