Bongodriver said:

>>it's true I havn't been as open about my condition like raaaid perhaps, for this I am ashamed. does this mean were not friends any more? I will get a full check from a doctor if you like, just please don't leave me. <<

Perhaps your help with the community has taken its toll? Perhaps you could see a psychiatrist at the same time as the doctor? As long as you post here, in the manner in which you do, I will be here to help (and in case they doubt my support, I'm happy to extend this to David Hayward, Aces, Wolf Rider, Freycinet, Chivas and others). I believe, as you do, that this forum is a much greater place, with your presence as its chief asset lately.